This Is My Year

Stupidity can be defined as doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result. Yep...that's me in a nutshell. I have been ringing in each new year with the same resolution, to lose weight and get healthy. This past year I turned 40 and ya know what..same stupid resolution. What makes this year any different from before? I have the answer. I've had it all along and never used it. I didn't trust it; not really anyway. I ignored it. I thought I knew better. I thought I had it all under control. But the truth is, I just didn't listen. But I'm going to listen now.

I remember sitting around a table talking to my mentor when she said I don't trust...not 100%. That in order for my problem to go away, I'd have to really give it up. She said I needed to pray for it. I know!!!!! Say what?!?! I mean I pray for all sorts of things, important things, but pray to lose weight? Come on. But as she explained it, we pray mostly when we are asking for something...begging God to intervene. And we don't ask/pray just once, we do it constantly over and over, day after day. We give up control and trust God to take care of it for us.

Sounds simple enough. I tried it. But never consistently. I always got comfortable. "I know what I'm doing now" I'd say after a few weeks and then the vicious diet cyle would start all over again. So now, with all that I have learned in my 25+ years of dieting I am putting it to the test. I call it the I can Do All Things plan. I named it after my favorite verse in the bible, Philippians 4:13.

Today is 1/9/2018. My name is Carm. I am addicted to food. I am beginning to have health issues.  I weigh in at 273 pounds.  But I am strong. I am not alone. I trust that with God, I can lose this weight and get healthy.